February 2009

I am so glad this month is almost gone. Its the shortest month of the year, but this time it has been super long. There is so much going on. Everyone is having a hard time and losing jobs. The economy is getting worse and worse. Jobs are hard to find and if you have a job, I suggest that you hang on to that job tightly and do your best at it. Why is it that some people can catch a break and others cannot?

My family has been struggling for a long time, in fact, since I was born. We have never had it easy and I often wonder if it is due to the fact that my family immigrated to the United States from other countries back around 1900-1940? There is just no telling.

I am 31 years old about to be 32 years old, I have never lived in a home that my family has owned, nor do I own my current residence. I have been on my own since I was 19 years old and have been renting the whole time. I have moved so many times in my life that it is hard to maintain jobs, mailing addresses, friends, and more. I think people who actually own a home are quite lucky and people who own more than one home just make me sick especially when they neglect one of the homes and just let it rot away.

The house I am currently renting is 2 bedrooms, one bathroom and there are 5 people living here. It is really cramped and there is no room for any of our things to be out so just about everything is in boxes. If I didn’t have so many doctor bills to pay, I wonder if I could get a home of my own? I also don’t have credit and that stinks. If I could go back and know everything that I know now, I wouldn’t change all of it, just some of it, but I would definitely have my own home.

I think I will eventually start some sort of ebusiness and hope that it will bring in some revenue for my family. I doubt it would since the economy is so bad. Oh well, February is a bad month. So many bad things have happened. My Grandfather fell, broke his arm, had to have surgery on it, then he falls again after the surgery when he’s at home and splits the stitches open and moves the metal thing in it, and had to have surgery again on it. I found out that Mr. Henry died in December and I had no idea that he did and I feel like crap about that.

I can’t help my family out of this house we are in and I feel trapped here. Is there nothing that I can do? Is there anything anyone can do? I wish everyone a better March and a better year. For those suffering like we are and worse, I wish you all the best and good luck in the future. To all those doing alright and will continue to do alright, I hope your luck doesn’t change and I hope you can remember that there are others hurting and try to lend a hand. If we can all help each other a little bit, maybe it won’t be like 1929 all over again.

Well, I will be back later. I am going to bed. I have to take my kids to school tomorrow or this morning. Have a good day!